My Crush Since 6th Grade! :)

Well to start it off I've had a crush on this guy since I was in 6th grade.. and to me that's insane but awesome at the same time. I met him through my best friend which is his sister... and he was sooo hott and I didn't know what to do at all back then, not just because I was in 6th grade but because of the age difference... Later on we started being friends talking on AIM and stuff through out those years, he would say little things like when are we going to hang out and stuff like that and I would get all excited but thought about it deep down inside and was like yeah right he's just another guy that acts like he wants to hang out but deep down he could care less... I thought waayyy too soon because later on we did.. and we both weren't really sure about dating then so nothing happened until recently this past August we started talking and hanging out again. We always had soo much fun we told each other pretty much everything and never had a dull moment or better yet within that little time period we NEVER argued.. about anything. We always played around and had a really good time! But the next thing I know he's breaking it off... and just when I felt like I was getting my heart back it was being taking away again. But it wasn't, it just hurt a little more than I wanted it to.. and I'm okay now. He had been fighting something he shouldn't have been and knew God was the only answer. God has to take control. If it is meant to be then God will put us together again, but for now I guess it's just not the time.. neither of us is strong enough for a relationship and I'm just glad we both know that and it's not like he hurt me intentionally. We both still have a good strong friendship and still talk even though sometimes I call him for help and I kind of feel bad doing that but I trust him more than anyone I know and what's bad is that anyone includes my daddy. I don't know why, I guess it's just because he actually listens to me and treats me like I'm a human being not some martian. He is his total self around me and I LOVE THAT!! I honestly can say that I used to have a hard time being myself around some guys even my ex I was with for almost 14 months, I can talk to him about any kind of problem I am dealing with at any time. He just PERFECT! Well to me he is.. and he's very responsible, honest, nice, hott, and pretty much anything else nice that you can say about him. He's what every girl wants!! But I think us just being friends is a good thing because if we are meant to be together later we will have a much stronger friendship but if not then we can always be best friends! I would much rather that than us not talking or being friends at all...