Things Will Come Together in the End

Life doesn't come close to what I expected it to be at all, but I guess that's why God is in control. I mean some days you can be jumping for joy and others you feel like your whole world is crashing down on you. Does anyone ever feel like that, or is it just me? Last night I finally figured out why me and my parents haven't been doing so great.. I just don't appreciate all the things they do for me like I should, and people have hinted that but I just never wanted to listen even though I should have. When I ask my parents to jump they usually ask how high.. honestly. They rarely ever just say NO. The one thing that has been bothering me and makes me point out all the things that I can't stand that they do is them not wanting me to be at South Gastonia. Everything else we are okay on accept I need to help them with my insurance. And they know I will after Christmas... But I love my parents and they would do anything in the world for me and I love them for that and appreciate everything they have done for me! But that wasn't the only thing that happened last night.. I don't think I've felt like this inside in a looong time.. but I know everything is going to be okay.. God will help me through it no matter what. Things may get harder for me because I won't have that person to talk to like I used to, but I know that I can talk to God just as easily.. he told me he still wants me to call him whenever I need to, but it just won't be the same even though I want it to be. People told me that my heart wasn't in this relationship like people have seen in the past, but that's not how I felt.. because I felt like I was actually doing the right thing with this guy for the first time EVER!! But I know things have to be the way they are for a reason, and maybe way down the road things could change when we are both where we need to be with God... but even if not we can still be friends, hopefully. God is the only way! and He is the right way!!